Time to resurface

Hello everyone,

It’s been a while ! I think I needed to dive under the covers for a little while. But first ! We need that thumbnail …

Picture. We're looking at two dinosaurs perched on the only part of a mountain still above water. They're looking over towards a wooden boat sailing away. The captions are "Oh crap was that today?" and "The first senior moment"

I think the big reason it’s been so long is a steady realisation that I’m probably descending deeper into the burn out, instead of thinking that I’d hit as far as I could go down and therefore the only way was to improve. Nah. I think the burn out is getting worse, if that’s possible. I’m hanging in there but there’s a general shell shocked feeling where I think I’ve retreated back within myself somewhat. Will have to see what I need to change to start recovering and improving. But first, what’s been happening outside of going into the shell for a couple of months ?

We left things last time in the middle of January. A massive highlight for this year was heading off to Megacon at the end of January. This was over in London at the Excel arena and I’d thoroughly recommend checking out this particular convention.

Picture. We're looking at a green haired lady in a yellow dress with black trim and white boots dancing in the middle of a square. She's facing us, holding up a purple fan in her right hand. In the background, a multitude of people looking at stands.

It’s a smaller convention than Comic Con, covering a lot of the same things. It’s perhaps a third of the size, so I was able to get around there a few times as well as just enjoy and soak up the vibes coming from the anime dancing ladies at the Performance Square. There was a lot of joy coming from watching them bounce around their stage. And wonderful vibes coming from the other dancing ladies off to the side, who were bouncing around as well.

It was just a wonderful, happy thing. And then there was what looked like an impromptu mass dance party later on. Amazing lovely happy vibes and it was wonderful to see.

I came away with some awesome loot too. The main reason I knew about Megacon was because I’d seen it on the wonderful Aby of Trayed and Tested‘s (Etsy link) Etsy page that’s at the link there. It’s always lovely to be recognised and a surprise too considering I’d only met Aby once before, at Insomnia 2024. Good to see them again and have a little natter.

Picture. We're looking at two red dragons, with a dice tray in the background and two sets of dice in the foreground. More info follows in the text.

The bits there include (there’s too much for alt-text there so here’s the list) :

A dice tray with rainbow coloured dragons flying.

A set of mostly transparent dice with real clouds inside (the d6 was hiding under Eeyore)

A set of larger green dice with yellow patterns and numbers on them.

A leather pouch to hold the dice tray and I keep the dice in there too.

A pink 3d printed dragon from Printing Like Rabbits.

And the Eeyore dragon that I picked up at one of the Welsh castles last year.

I’m definitely a person that mirrors the vibes of the people that I’m around, which can be a good thing and a bad thing. (Happy people make me happy, toxicity frustrates me) It’s why I went back to Trayed and Tested at Insomnia last year and why Megacon caught the eye as somewhere to go. Looking forward to Comic Con later in the year, plus there will be the UK Games Expo the weekend after.

Picture. We're looking at a cute white kitten with orange fur on the top of their head. The captions are "I need" "Hugs"

And then there was the day after … I had what I’ll call a health event. I won’t go into details except that there was a decent amount of blood escaping, I should have taken myself off to hospital to get seen to. I’m ok, it was messy but was under control quickly, hasn’t recurred since and I still have all the bits we should have.

But whereas I’d have quite liked to get the Megacon details locked in to memory with a post, that health event is something I’d quite like to delete from the memory. It rattled me for a little while that one.

Gosh, what else has been going on apart from that ? I haven’t been getting out much. I think that’s part of the burn out. I did take a week off a couple of weeks ago, I was thinking about going up to the Lake District for a few days. Kinda like the Conwy Castle trip up to North Wales last year, except doing all of the arrangements myself this time.

Is it bad when you’re too mentally done to arrange stuff to help recover from being too mentally done ? Probably.

One thing that has happened since the last post is me doing the Space thing again …

Game screenshot. Elite Dangerous. We're looking at four buggies on an airless rocky planet. The buggies are parked looking away from us, in a line left to right. In the sky, we see dots of stars plus a small white blue sun.

The interest happened again due to the lovely Ninja Space Unicorn (Twitch link) kicking off an expedition in Elite Dangerous to head off to the far side of the galaxy and back. It caught the interest and so I’ve joined in with the streams so far. And they’ve been fun too, including the picture above where the 4 of us that day were all set up to do a buggy race around our landed space ships.

The expedition has been paused for a few weeks now due to IRL Stuff (we lost a friend far too soon) but having fun on the expedition made me look again at the second account I had from a giveaway from a different distributor (Ok it was Epic) … so I’m playing Elite on two accounts now. My main account is still 1000 light years above the centre of the galaxy but their carrier is supporting the alt account build up a star system.

That’s been another big draw, there were rumours at the start of the year that colonisation was coming to Elite. We could claim a system for our own and build stuff in there. Mine’s the Col 285 Sector ZU-L B9-2 gosh that’s a mouthful here’s an Inara link system. There are just two installations completed so far but I should be able to finish two more this week with what’s in the carrier … and then it goes faster from there for a little bit with smaller bases. And if you’ve had a look at that link and noticed something …

Game screenshot. Elite Dangerous. We're looking at a spaceship mostly in shadow lower left. The engines are flaring out a white exhaust as the ship heads towards the opening into a cubical space station. The name "Here be Dwagons" is emblazoned below the entrance.

Yep. My home station is called Here Be Dwagons. It had to be :-D. And it’s been making me grin every time I go past the name in the list of things in the system. I do have a few more names in the Book Of Names. One will come soon because I have a farm station quite early in the build list. The other big name needs to wait until a medical facility is built. Other than that, looking for some really good names. There could well be a Space Unicorn themed name in there at some point.

Other stuff ? It’s April Fools Day tomorrow, I don’t have anything planned for that … although I did go back to childhood times by acquiring a game called Derail Valley. It’s a train driver simulator. It’s really early days in there for me but I’d point you towards Squirrel’s playlist of the game over on Youtube. He’ll tell you more about an interesting curious game with that progression system inside that you know I go for.

I think I better hit the post and publish button in a moment though … I’ve been keeping the reading going, I lost the reading streak again (oops) but I’ll be looking to do an A to Z of books thing this year. It’s supposed to be authors but I don’t think I’ll find enough variety there for all of the letters, so I’ll go with authors and titles.

Good to post again, I’ll try and not make it two months until the next one !

Have a great evening everyone.

PS Social media stuff ! I’ve abandoned Twixxer (the owner), I keep up to date on Bluesky (the author / creator communities are barmy wonderful fun) and most of the discords I’m in … I’ll post to Farcebook but I don’t keep up to date with what gets posted there (bad algorithm, too much).

Insert Meme Title Here

Hello everyone 🙂

Oh dear that’s a bit of a weak title innit … Couple of memes caught the eye this week that I thought would make an excellent theme for things to have a natter about. But first … thumbnail !

Picture meme. We're looking at a black and white cat that is sitting up. There is a loading wheel above their head and the caption is "Pls be patient, his brain cell is loading."

I think I broke my brain a little bit today. It’s a work related thing where we’re looking how we can add one bit of equipment to a bigger bit of equipment but it’s not entirely obvious how best to do it. So I started thinking about the problem in an abstract way. Ask not what the obvious solution is, ask what the problems actually are and what you’re trying to achieve. And you may end up with a completely different answer to what everyone has assumed the answer should be.

Actually that cues me up for a mini rant … I bet you’ve all been subjected to websites that are massively overkeen to get you to sign up for their cookies and especially their surveys or their newsletters. I had a suggestion to do that here, where one of the third party people were recommending I use that newsletter popup.

Nope. I hate that. It’ll never appear here.

You know the one I mean, where you’ve mostly randomly found a news site (often techie geeky stuff) and as soon as you move the mouse off the window, you get a popover that obscures the article that’s demanding you sigh up for a newsletter. If any website owners are reading this, PLEASE don’t do that. It’ll make random readers annoyed with you for having to dismiss the newsletter pop up and if they’re annoyed, they won’t ever sign up for updates. Whether or not someone signs up for a newsletter depends entirely on the quality of your content. If their first impressions are tainted by having to click too many links to dismiss cookies, or by a newsletter popup, then that first impression is pure annoyance and the first impressions stick.

Think of how you see the websites you look at, then apply what your impressions are to creating the style of your own site. And I have to admit to being a little bit lazy there myself with how I’ve got this site set up. It could be better, at least I hope it’s not annoying.

Because annoyance overrides being interesting. Put that newsletter or subscribe link at the end of your post. If someone’s enjoyed reading what you’ve contributed, that’s the point where you want them to see the “would you like to see more?”

Rant complete 🙂 First meme of the day is a question that a good friend on Bluesky asked. What would the title of your autobiography be ? I had a ponder on this for a minute, looked away for a second, had a random moment of inspiration and …

Picture. Cartoon strips. Top left, a red dragon is saying "Here to slay me? With that little thing". Top right, an armoured man holds up a sword saying "Oh, no I needed this to get here." Bottom left, a conical mountain with captions "I thought you'd be lonely up here so I'm here to sit with you, if you'd like". Bottom right sees man and dragon sitting quietly beside each other looking at the sunset.

I got that from Google images from probably a collections site but I might look up @Beardedhorse there for more. Ah ha ! Cool, they’re on Bluesky.

ADHD Brain says “stay on topic”, the daft idea I had was that my autobiography would be titled “Here be dwagons.” What would yours be ?

Next meme … if video games cause violence, what would you be going to prison for based on the last game you played. I’m not counting Idle Champions there, I’ve played Motorsport Manager today but when I answered that meme, the answer was “Running a sweatshop style factory impriso—- employing hordes of adorable little gnomes to build products with no thought for safety”. Yep, it’s the rather special Little Big Workshop.

Game screenshot. Little Big Workshop. We can see the rooms of our factory laid out before us, filled with little machines and small gnome people with Xmas hats. In the centre, a box with a bearded fellow in red hat and blue waistcoat thanking us for delivering items to make the festive season happen.

There we go, that’s from the end of the Xmas event that the game has at a particular time of the real world calendar year. It’s a cracking game, very addictive with definite “one more job” tendencies to keep you sucked in playing the game.

Last meme was about games that you have and own in the Steam library but have never played … I have to admit to having more than a few of these. Sometimes it’s because I just haven’t gotten round to trying to learn them. Let’s see a few of these highly regarded games that I really need to have a good look at :

Puffin Planes has 5 minutes – it’s an airline management game where you’re looking to encompass the globe with your airline taking people from place to place. Just haven’t felt the Brain to learn to play it.

Sky Haven is an airport management game where you build your airport. I did enjoy setting up Airport CEO but didn’t have Brain to learn this one at the time.

Dustland Delivery – post apocalyptic truck game. You’re not driving the truck like the Euro Truck Sim / American Truck Sim games, it’s more a strategic transport game.

Stardew Valley and Graveyard Keeper – they’re both farm type games, with Graveyard Keeper having you manage sending the dead off. And harvesting them for bits to make other things. These are both legendary standard games that I really should invest some time in to learn.

Space Crew was a freebie and I added it to the library for the soundtrack. It’s a follow on to Bomber Crew (which I did own and look at) but didn’t play it because the gameplay videos and reviews I saw for it suggested that it was a bit of a soulless grindy hard for the sake of it game that I wouldn’t enjoy. And it doesn’t have the nostalgic connection to WW2 that Bomber Crew has.

Kenshi – is a post apocalyptic wasteland game where you roam with a small band of warriors trying to carve out your place in the world. I really should play this one, it’s a unique one with its own special character.

Papers Please – another legendary one where you play the part of an Immigration and Passport Control Agent in the totalitarian authoritarian country of Arstotzka. You decide whether people are allowed in or not and they’ve included enough weird character to make this an interesting cult classic.

Parkitect, Project Hospital and Model Builder – these all arrived in the same bundle as Little Big Workshop.

Humble is responsible for a lot of the unplayed games in my library, because I’d add the games I acquired as part of a bundle but wasn’t actually interested in.

Last one for today – Disco Elysium is another legendary game. It’s a mostly text adventure game set in a future scifi world that’s descended into neglect and dystopia. There’s a lot that’s very familiar to what we have in our 21st century world, with more advanced technology mixed in. But it’s not about the technology, it’s about a murder, an uncaring city, a long suffering partner and a cop charged with figuring out what’s going on at the same time as piecing together who they are from the fragments of extreme amnesia.

It’s another classic. I really must find the time to play it !

I need to get my daily at least one chapter read now though, so I’ll bid you goodnight, have a wonderful timezone everyone.

Winter wonderland, for a day

Hello everyone,

We had snow ! It’s always a big event that in UK because it’s quite rare. Although maybe it’s increasing as the weather gets wilder ? It didn’t last long but it was good to have a little wander in it while it lasted. Still chilly here … but the occasional clouds aren’t turning to rain or snow.

Thumbnail pic ?

Picture. Meme. We're looking at 4 panels all of a black cat with large eyes. The panels steadily get closer to the cat. The captions together say "I wish your year is full of nice things"

There we go. Purr.in.ink are good people and I must check that I’m following them on Bluesky if they’re over there yet.

Uhoh this could be a random post – quickly on the social media stuff … I’ve given up on trying to keep up with Facebook and Twixxer. I’ll occasionally scroll through the Facebook stuff but it is very occasional. Their algorithm is complete garbage now and hides things. I don’t bother scrolling Twixxer any more, definitely not on mobile due to how advert heavy it is. Plus both Facebook and Twixxer are run by … well you’ll have your own opinions there and I probably agree with most of them. It doesn’t help that both of these sites are now deeply problematic with who runs them.

Bluesky is great for keeping up with that selective curated group of people that I follow, as is Instagram. Plus I’ve trained Instagram to mostly suggest cute dog meme videos that it shows me when the people I follow haven’t posted an update. Good times.

Snow ?

Picture. We're looking at a snowy scene towards a road curving around a roundabout in the centre. We can see the patterning of the snow coming down. It's at night and there is light from streetlights and a car negotiating the roundabout.

We didn’t get much, although it was enough to cover up the roads with a light layer that was giving some people a few issues.

Picture. We're standing on a lightly snow covered pavement looking down a long straight road lined with lit streetlights on the other side. The road is covered in snow with ruts cut into it by the cars.

About enough snow there to make things interesting on the roads but it was a Saturday evening, so not many people were needing to head out to go to work or get supplies. Roads were pretty quiet actually and I think one of the local chippies were closing up early.

It was nice having the little walkabout. Not too cold and the snow was easy to walk through in the boots. I didn’t see any snow people about though and I didn’t stay out for that long.

Picture. Snow scene again. We're looking towards a small bridge. There is a wooden fence on each side, going up to about hip height. Beyond, the leafless branches of a layer of trees.

We did have the last remnants of the Christmas lights though.

Picture. Snow scene. We're looking down a lightly snow covered lane between houses, some of which we can see on the right with cars parked in short driveways in front. The screen is lit by streetlights and light blue white dot lights on the trees.

Pretty.

It’s taken me a few more days than I wanted to post this one ! Back at work this week and that usually leads to me being absolutely wiped out by the time it gets to the evening. (Especially as I did Mall on Monday evening and got back a bit late) So I’ve been gaming, with the trucks and a bit of Mass Effect, chilling out with the stream watching and enjoying the reading.

First book read of 2025 was Lords of Uncreation by Adrian Tchaikovsky. It’s the last of his Architects trilogy, set in a fairly near future universe where humanity reached the stars only to find monsters lurking in Unspace* which would come out and remake planets as works of grotesque art. *(Unspace is this universe’s faster than light travel mechanism). It was a great trilogy with lots of shenanigans and characters to enjoy and the author pulled off the ending really well.

Next up is Colony Mars Four Jezero City by Gerald M Kilby. It’s started out as a murder mystery set on near future Mars. They’re not as well written as the Lords of Uncreation trilogy but they’re still an enjoyable tale. We need these books as well as the masterpieces. And some of the really well written books can be really boring and dreary to read.

I’d prefer to dive through a bunch of great stories that pull me in quickly, than to slog through something I’m not enjoying. And I’m looking at the Peter F Hamilton book from last year there, I enjoyed part of that set up but could tell it was about to go into very dark places with very little narrative support for it going to even deeper dark places.

Oh ! Gotta get back to the book (and the ShoxxyQT* stream) so I can keep a Kindle reading streak going that’s over 400 days now. The last time I missed a day was on the return home day of the Norway cruise, which had a nightmare drive home through almost central London on a really bad traffic day.

*Shoxxy is a new find in the streaming world, she’s a Scottish streamer lady who I’ve seen a small number of streams from so far. Lovely person, has very cosy chill vibes and it makes me happy hanging out in streams like that. Here’s a Twitch link. Although it’s more disturbing horror vibes from the game she has at the moment :-D.

Back to the book ! Nite all, have a lovely rest of the weekend.

Happy New Year everyone

Hello everyone,

It’s been a week since the last post already ? Gosh, kinda lost a few days there maybe :-). I thought I’d do a review of the year today, which has been inspired by something that the lovely Batkitto put on her discord (there’s a Twitch link there which has the rest of her links)

This year started as it finished, with us being a bit worried about the old mum. She’s doing ok and it was good to get up there for a couple of days over Xmas.

Bats’s post was about pictures, so let’s see … what’s our thumbnail today ?

Picture. We're on the cruise ship, in an open area. We're looking across the deck towards the horizon. The sun is setting behind a bank of cloud, giving off a lovely yellow glow. Our red dwagon is looking at it from a position on stacked sunbeds.

There we go. Kinda the wrong end of the year to start with but it was an excellent pick of a pic for the thumbnail. The cruise was good fun, relaxing, healing and I think it was just what I needed for that time of the year. I’d had a break previously into Wales but lost the benefit of that due to probable covid. I actually had a few away breaks through the year too, with occasional days at things like Insomnia and Creator North and Wales. More on those later. And more for the cruise in later posts too, I still owe three port visit posts there :-D. It was a wonderful time (except the Bay of Biscay crossings!) and we were looked after really well by the crew.

And there were day trips too …

Picture. We're looking over a metal fence towards a castle. On the right is a wooden bridge ending at a gatehouse flanked by two thick round towers.

I did a big camera upgrade this year to the Canon R50 :-D. And then proceeded to take it to various castles to have a nosey around and get loads of pictures of castles for people. The one above is White Castle in the midsts of hilly Wales. I’ve also been across to Chepstow, Caerphilly, Cardiff castle, the remaining wall of Carmarthen (which also saw me acquire a tripod upgrade) and then the North Wales trip took me to Conwy and Caernarfon.

It was good to be out and about taking pictures and seeing what it could do. Time for an honest opinion … Is it worth spending all that money on a fancy camera these days ? It all you’re looking to do is take selfies and relatively close range shots, no. Mobile phone cameras these days are filled with incredible optics for their size, it’s easier to get the pictures out of them (the R50 is easy but it’s still an extra step) and the software in the phone allows for incredible performance in unexpected ways. Like I left the good camera in the cabin later on in the cruise because the phone in night mode is fantastic for astro photography … with the software making a tripod kinda redundant.

Picture. We're looking towards a red dragon perched on a low wall. A medieval building is in the background.

Castle ! This time in Cardiff with the dragon there. I’ll look to find myself in Cardiff at some point this week, probably Thursday because everything will be closed up tomorrow. It was nearly today, although that went out for two reasons – I couldn’t get to sleep last night which meant I didn’t wake up and be active early enough today and the other reason is that my eyes are bad again … I might need to invest in new pillows and pillowcases there because I think those might be causing me problems.

One road trip that did happen was the yearly pilgrimage over to Lords for the Interservices T20 cricket. We lost half of the play to rain but the games we had were fun to watch. It’s not the best standard of cricket but the players put everything they have into the games and they’re well matched even games that could go either way, often hinging on really close moments in the game.

Pictures. We're looking a 2 stacked pictures, one above the other. Both pictures have a batsman in light blue top, black trousers and a fielder in red top black trousers and an umpire in black and dark blue, with a hat and green shoulders and arms. The two pics are as the ball is hitting the stumps and the fielder reacting below.

That was me playing with the longer lens I have, plus also playing with some of the options in the camera. The above had it in continuous shots and it let me capture the run out. Really happy with how that one turned out, not so happy with the editing I did 😀 (There’s a rogue line upper right). This is where the expensive camera comes in handy, it allows for much longer zoom lengths with different lenses.

But a huge highlight for me this year was the events that I was at with other people … Starting with Insomnia :

Picture. We're looking upwards at two people on a stage. The one on the left is a gentleman in white shirt, grey waistcoat and dark trousers, holding up a microphone in his right hand. To the left is a powerful looking lady barbarian with red hair, holding up her right hand in a fist, with a huge hammer in her left.

That’s Ragedarling, of Session Zero, playing as her barbarian character in the live action D&D show run by Josh Strife Hayes there in the picture. I massively enjoyed Insomnia back in March, it was lovely to run into Miyukipanda touring the halls, to watch the highly entertaining Session Zero show with Ragedarling and …

Picture. We're looking up at the stage again. The gentleman is on the left, Rage the barbarian is sitting on a couch behind and the new character being introduced is Sorceress Trixx. She's a tall, thin lady in a flowing black and purple dress with a fancy bodice. She's holding a staff with her right hand while holding up her left hand in a wave.

… There’s Billietrixx there playing Sorceress Trixx in the show. Twitch link there again. It’s been fun catching Billie’s streams and it’s been lovely being part of that community over this year and last since … finding Billie through the wonderful Tashnarr, who was a big part of making Insomnia such a wonderful experience.

They come together to be the faces of the Creator North events as well and it was good to be able to get up to Sheffield for the second of these in September this year. Looking forward to the next one of those already. It’s run by the remarkable LookItsTilly who moderates in the background for Billietrixx and Tashnarr with Maddog there being the final member of the organising crew. It was lovely being adopted by NinjaSpaceUnicorn’s little posse for the day too, that made it all the sweeter.

Picture. We're looking at a white saucer with an appetising looking brownie on it. Behind and right is a dwagon with an apron saying "Feed Me". In front there is a blue ribbon with white and orange lettering saying "Creator North 2024".

It was fun times, although I was suffering at the time with the extreme tiredness which was shared by a lot of people there plus I may well have done a minor dislocation on the shoulder again at the start and … probably picked up covid again. The shoulder is still attached, although I don’t think it went back in right, it’s still sore. What happened ? Someone got my attention to my left, so I turned … or at least my body turned and the arm stayed behind. Ouch.

Picture. We're looking out from the top of Mount Snowdon in Wales. There is a rocky, grassy outcropping in front of us and beyond that, valleys and hills covered in wisps of mist.

And then I have a little away time in North Wales with trips to Conwy Castle (where Ellardy the Little Red Dwagon happened), Caernarfon Castle and up Mount Snowdon by the railway.

I missed an event ! (Translation – got sidetracked). It’s always a highlight getting to MCM Comic Con in May with Comic Con Friend. It was the first time we’re been able to go to this since 2019 and a pandemic happened. There are more pictures from Comic Con in the post (linky). It was lovely to see Comic Con Friend again, we had a great day out there with lots of wonderful cosplay to see and loot to check out and it was awesome to catch up again. And I think CCF appreciated having a chance to catch up with the messages while we were on the way to/from London too while listening in to the playlist I’d hastily popped together (and then ran out of !) before.

Events are a little congested in May next year but MCM is something that’s on the definite list. I picked up a couple more ideas from peeking at Trayed and Tested‘s update on their Etsy site, like Megacon (London in Jan) and UK Games Expo (end May – NEC). Wait, didn’t I mention loot ?

Picture. We're looking at a crystalline rainbow coloured dwagon wrapped around a large dark green d20. The background is light blue, they're on a pine colour wooden desk.

Gosh, this is turning into a long one. It felt good to be blogging regularly again through December with advent, you’ll see the picture I posted into Batkitto’s discord in the post before this one. I’d missed the posting but with the burn out continuing, plus putting everything into work … I wasn’t feeling like opening the writing up again in the evening. Kinda like I’d spent the brain power through the day and wanted to be robot in a game or soaking up a good book while watching a stream in the evening. So the blogging went by the wayside there.

There have been many books ready too this year, Kindle tells me that I read 32 books this year although it only counts multibook packs as 1 each for the whole series. So the actual is probably 40. I think I’ll summarise those in another post. Games have been fun this year too, I’m close to picking up Star Wars Outlaws in the Steam sale, that was an excellent game.

Picture. We're on the ship, looking out over the side. The sky is mostly clear, with cloud to the left. Brilliant sunshine comes from near the horizon. We can see the rail of the ship below. We're looking out over the sea, broken up by light waves.

Time to wrap up though, on this post and on the year. It’s been an odd year. There’s been the massive highlights from the events and seeing much loved people again or for the first time. It’ll be good to continue that into 2025 and see about getting to more events. It’s been a rough year on that front too, with events closing down and jobs in the gaming industry going that the streaming people depend on.

Hopefully you’re all back here reading a similar post at the end of 2025. What adventures will we get up to ?

I hope to share at least a few of mine with you, either on here … or maybe in person ? We’ll see. Looking forward to seeing you <3.

Advent day 24 just checking in

Hello everyone,

Just another quick one today. I’ve made the trip up to see family … good to see people again, although bugs are going around again so won’t be able to see everyone this time around.

What’s behind the door ?

Picture, we're looking at the complete advent collection with the snow scene in the background. The latest one is at the back on top of the d20. It's a flat spaceship with a red body and large wings, with white trim.

I’m just snatching the chance to pop in this last of the advent series posts while the dinner prep is starting. Great to see sister again, mum is back home as well which is a big relief.

(The model is from the obscure Young Jedi Adventures series, bit of an odd choice for the finale model of this set but it’s a decent looking ship)

Time to hit the post button but not before acknowledging that it’s felt good to be blogging so regularly again, even if a few of the evenings have seen the post rather forced out from behind a wall of worry and or just basic pain and sometimes both over the last week.

I haven’t preplanned how the posts will go this time, it’s just been a fairly random choice of subject from what’s been happening on the day or evening. Or it just lurches sideways from the first intent to something rather different. Just remembering back to a series on the old site at least 4 years ago, the Elitecember series was a good one and did see me preplanning lots for it (part because I needed to be in game to acquire screenshots where required) but I think that time it rather burned me out on both sketching and blogging.

I’ll attempt to avoid that burn out again, while posting a bit more regularly. It was a really good habit to be in and I hope people have enjoyed the happier posts, sympathised with the unhappy ones and that you’ve liked the pictures coming through.

Have a lovely festive time everyone !

Picture. Meme. We're looking at a close up of the head of a dog. They're a white dog with a dark nose that is absolutely covered with little dots of hundreds and thousands cake ornamentation. The captions are "Christmas Cookies?" "No, I haven't seen any Christmas cookies"

See you in a few days.

Advent day 23 and we’re speeding along

Hello everyone,

I’m having a bit of a curl up and not be particularly human day today, so I’ve pretty much hidden in Little Big Workshop and quietly lurked in a couple of streams with not too much source of input going on.

Hold up, what’s behind the door today ?

Picture. We're looking at most of the advent collection again. Our dwagon is on the right, the new model is on the left on top of the d20. It's an open top hover vehicle, with a sandy colour curved front and darker brown at the back. Two dots for figures are behind an aero screen. At the back, three engine pods to left, right and upper.

There we are, it’s the speeder from the first Star Wars movie. And today’s dodgy shift from picture to text is … (drumroll)

This year feels like it’s been speeding along … The time seems to have flown by but it’s also felt like an exceptionally draining year. A lot of that is stuff from behind the wall. Some of it is, you know I’m very wrapped up in the streaming and gaming community world and consider a lot of them friends. Insomnia was a brilliant event at the start of the year and the failure of the company that ran Insomnia hit especially hard, I think because the discontinuation of the event had a massive impact on the lives of those friends from the online communities.

That’s from the people who ran the event (hello Tashnarr), the people who were employed on stands at the event, the people (hello Billietrixx) who were the core of bringing us such a massive highlight in the Session Zero live dungeons and dragons show, people like Aby of Trayed and Tested who … I bought dice at Trayed and Tested and nowhere else at Insomnia because Aby was such a lovely person on the day (link to Etsy on the right).

I think I’ve mentioned before that I tend to mirror people when they interact. If they are lovely people, I find it much easier to engage with them. If they’re … not nice, I’ll find myself somewhere else to be. I’ll enjoy staying around people with the good vibes.

And the interesting people too. Interesting people are fun to be around. What defines interesting ? Not sure there. It’ll be something unique to that individual.

I think that’s enough from me for today. Not quite sure what I’ll be up to over the next few days, we’ll take it one day as a time and hopefully have a little fun family gathering. And then I’m back to trying to disconnect and chill out before we all head back to work in a week and a bit.

Have a lovely evening everyone 🙂

Oh ! Back to events for an epilogue … I somewhat decided last year that I probably wouldn’t be going back to Boatlife in 2025 but I did peek at what was happening yesterday, to discover that it too was an event that had gone in the bin. Not sure about the circumstances there, it felt like it could have been a really good event. Although the reason I thought I wouldn’t be back was because I thought the exhibitors had evolved into overgrown tenders and away from the workhorse liveaboards that I’m interested in.

I think that if Boatlife can fail as well, with it being run by NEC’s own events company, then it shows how rough the events world is at the moment. Which makes the very promising Creator Events group even more important for keeping the fun alive.

Definitely that’s it for me now – have a great rest of your day and if you’re out of contact for whatever reasons (good and bad things happen this time of year), I hope it’s a positive time for you.

Advent Day 22 and we have a Crested Razor

Hello everyone,

What’s behind the door today ?

Picture. We're looking at the advent collection again, which is up to 21 models arranged on the snow scene, plus the dwagon on the left this time. The new one is on top of two dice, the big d20 at 20 and a d6 with the 2 lit up. The model is a spaceship, with a blocky centre, guns either side at the front and two engines, one each side high up in the middle.

It’s another entry from the Mandalorian today, with the Razor Crest on top of the dice there. Again, it’s a series I’ve never seen, I’ve just seen the memes and some of the stories around the series. I might get Disney+ at some point to catch up on things like this and Andor but … I’m not actually watching much series telly at the moment.

Not sure why with that, it’s just probably not in my pattern these days. I do have that touch of Autism / ADHDness in me, which manifests itself in various ways. I like listening to the music a lot, which is rather incompatible with watching stuff on the telly. Some days, especially lately, the telly has stayed off so it’s not been another source of input that contributes to the burn out. The desktop monitor is where I watch stuff like the World Endurance Championship racing, IMSA racing and Formula 1, although I’m a one screen person so that’s exclusive of any gaming I’m thinking of doing … it’s also where a favoured stream will get watched.

Talking of gaming … there’s a curious feeling of thinking I’m being driven towards playing certain games in particular due to time limited events in the game. There are a couple of those at the moment :

Euro Truck Sim 2 is running an event for the latest Greece expansion, with a World of Trucks (you can see the link to my trucker on the links list). The event runs until 2nd Feb but I’ve actually crashed through it yesterday and today.

Picture. We're looking towards the sun, in the clouds above our truck. In the background, a domed building with two very thin pointed towers.

How was Greece ? Honestly, not great. The expansion has carried through the character of it being a very pretty place with its own distinct architecture. But … I think it’s been rushed through and the NPC driver AI can’t handle things like the Greece specific toll booths. Event’s complete now though, so I’ll go back to my newer* character and not see the Greek areas for quite some time probably.

*I reset my character down to zero when I started the game again, without any of the extra map packs. There are a series of achievements that are far quicker and easier to get if you have less of a map, like the one to explore 60% of the map and there’s another for exploring 100% of the map.

There’s another event going at the moment, to deliver Xmas packages from the Winter Wonderland area I mentioned previously. I’ll complete that in the next session in the game I do. I only need to do 7 more runs to complete the number I need to do.

One for considerably more grinding is in Elite Dangerous … I haven’t been in this one nearly as much as I used to be. Once I completed the latest exploration mission, I wasn’t seeing much else I was interested in with the game. However, with the incoming addition of colonisation to the game, that definitely has my attention. I’ll definitely have to find a star system I can turn into a Dwagon Roost.

That’s one for later though, the near term grind in Elite is going to be for better hyperdrives. I missed seeing info about a Community Goal where you could get hold of the latest best for free, so I’ll need to do some collecting there.

But I was feeling trucks far more than space this weekend, so trucks it was.

Thinking about it, there will be timed seasonal events going in World of Warcraft at the moment … I’ll have to go back to that game at some point. I went away from it when Star Wars Outlaws came out and lost myself in the world of Kay Vess and Nix. I’m probably about to rebuy Outlaws and lose myself in its world again.

Or Rogue Trader, a computer roleplaying game set in the far future of Warhammer 40,000. That has a soundtrack too … (I haven’t acquired that yet because I seem to bounce off that kind of game lately)

Ahhh, time to peek at the sales again and hover over adding Rogue Trader and Outlaws to the cart. I have the start of a Cunning Plan for the arrangements of things over the next week, which I think will work. But I think I need to hide away again from the why of those arrangements (it’s not for here) so …

Signing off again for tonight ! See you all tomorrow. Have a lovely rest of your day.

Advent day 21 and we’re in the lair

Hello everyone,

I think I’ve pretty much crashed today ! Not felt like I’ve had the energy to do much today, which has seen me just watching videos (still catching up) and then be enjoying watching the ever lovely and fun Tashnarr as she’s been streaming for us all day.

She’s hunting dinosaurs in the ARK Survival Evolved game. What’s behind the door today ?

Picture. We're looking at the advent calendar collection again at now 21 models plus dwagon. The latest is on top of a d20 showing 20 and a black d6 showing 1. The model is on top, it's a black edifice with 2 triangular black sections pointing up and a red bit in the middle.

There we go. It’s Mr Darth’s fortress, as seen in the Rogue One movie. Must watch that again.

I’ve had some more news, after having decision paralysis all day ref attempting to contact. News is ok, although I’m still very unsure about what’s going to be happening over the next week. We’ll have a gathering but I’ve been feeling so burned out that I don’t feel I have the energy to look after myself, let alone help anyone else. And my psychology meaning that I have a deep need to help people out works against me as well there, because it adds some weight on to that depression when I have to withdraw from helping people out.

This is in danger of extending a bit past the quick in and out I thought it might be but I think I needed to get those thoughts down in some sort of order.

The general exhaustion is why I haven’t been getting out and about as much as I’d have liked to. I’ve been a bit starved for star gazing opportunities (bought lens, permanent cloud since) plus I’m that deep in that burn out hole that I’ve been needing rest time after a trip.

The cruises have been great for that, because you get to the ship and then it’s completely just chill out time and they do everything for you. North Wales was a good trip (probable covid not included) for the castles but I could have done without the mayhem of the one car park, being around British drivers and especially not the drive back … which took 7 hours instead of 4. (Oh and I was also in trouble with a poorly tooth)

Anyway, I’m missing out on the last little bits of Tashnarr streaming. Time to hit post and go back to stream. There’s the link to Twitch again and there are links to her Instagram and other socials over there too. She doesn’t stream so much now but it’s been lovely keeping up with the Instagram updates, especially with the advent calendar series. She had a delicious looking chocolate one from work and the dice from the Trayed and Tested advent calendar are turning out even better than expected. It’s cheered me up seeing the delight when the doors have been getting opened. Trayed and Tested are over on Etsy via the link there (and in the links list). I’d thoroughly recommend checking them out too.

Picture. We're looking at a black leather pattern box, on top of which is an array of dice plus a green dwagon. The dice are sharp edged and a mix of pink and off-white. The card behind says Trayed and Tested.

There we go, picked up at a show I greatly enjoyed earlier this year.

Time to disappear again now, have a lovely rest of evening.

Advent day 20 and we’re going to a Porto

Hello everyone,

Back to cruise ! First though, what’s behind today’s door ?

Picture. It's our advent collection of all the models, plus the red dwagon on the right, in front of the snow scene. The latest minifigure is standing on top of the large green d20 again. They are in a full set of red armour with a face covering helmet. They are holding a black staff vertically, it has violet cones on the end.

There we go, it’s a stormtrooper melee staff person guard.

We’ll see how far this one goes again, I’m in that psychological shutdown mode again at the moment, because work is done for the year and I’m unconsciously going into rest mode plus a few of the aches have been maybe aggravated today (I have the numb fingers again). Plus I’m still worried about a few very special people.

To a better time and the cruise ?

Picture. We're on the cruise ship, looking over the side. The focus is on the little red dwagon, sitting on a sun lounger. Behind is the white painted metal and the wooden top of the rail at the edge of the ship. Behind and left is a red rubber life saving ring, on the rail. Out of focus through the rail are the buildings of the city.

That’s Porto in the background there. We were docked up in the cruise terminal, just about in walking distance of parts of the main city. A very short shuttle bus run took us to the outsides of the terminal and the start of a little wander.

Picture. We're looking back at a walkway. Our little red dwagon is perched on the edge, with a white painted fence behind. In the background is our ship, with the Bridge end pointed our way.

Dwagon finding the best places to pose in again. The Portuguese Navy ship was in port here and I did actually have a better picture than I thought …

Picture. We're looking across the calm water of the harbour. Docked up is a blue container ship on the left and a grey Navy warship in the centre. The skyline is a mix of cranes and is dominated by a pair of tower buildings with orange faces and black edges.

There we go, Portuguese frigate pennant number F333 NRP Bartolomeu Dias hanging around there and wanting to see if I could get a better peek gave me my choice of which direction to start walking in when ashore.

And so off I wander past a port side area with lots of equivalents of our sea side fish and chip shops. I suspect the fare would have been rather better, at least according to all of the sea birds lined up on the buildings opposite … waiting their chance to pounce. Like the young lady on a lad who I suspect was greatly enjoying the type of attention she was giving him. He wasn’t being given much of a chance to escape and I don’t think “escape” was on his mind at all :-D.

That wasn’t the only ship that caught the eye, we had a ferry transporter docked up next to us.

Picture. We're looking out of the calm waters of the harbour towards a big ship with grey lower and white upper. The Bridge section is up front and there is a yellow and blue funnel aft.

Not sure what they were doing with that one. It’d be a transporter vessel and they were moving lorries around on the top deck. Cue the mystified feeling because they’d bring a lorry to the top (they could drive around inside), park the lorry and its trailer … and the the lorry would go back downstairs again.

Anyway, back to shore and off I pop to explore, see if I could get a better view of the Navy ship and I find myself being led by the curiosity …

Picture. We're looking out over the best. Dwagon is sitting looking at us on the blocky sea wall. The beach is to the left. People are scattered around, including sitting on the wall. In the distance, our cruise ship facing us and the long ferry transporter is side on to us. The sky is somewhat clear, with thin white cloud.

It was a good little wander, although I didn’t head into too many of the shops. Just a fish market where Dwagon was way more interested in looking at the fare than the film. I find myself nearing the end of the contents of my water bottle* and at the beach. Good little wander.

*I’ve been skating on a balance in my metabolism I think. I’ve been getting subjected to heavy cramping and one thing that helps keep that at bay is staying hydrated. So if I run through all of my water supply, that’s a big sign to start heading back before I start getting into cramping trouble … which leads to torn muscles and being restricted on how much I can move around.

Picture. We're on the open top deck of the cruise ship, looking out over the rail towards the breakwater that marks the edge of the port. There is a red tinge on the horizon below where the sun is reflecting off gently rippled water. We can see the sun's glow behind thickening cloud.

Time to head on though and the sun was starting to retreat when we made our own retreat from Porto. But not before seeing a container ship do the naval equivalent of a three point turn to dock up at the container area.

Picture. We're looking out across the gently rippled water of the harbour towards a container ship to the left and the low buildings to the right. The ship is long low and blue, with a tall white area at the back, to right of shot. The deck is stacked with mostly blue containers.

There we go. This is after she turned in place to then finally back up to get alongside at the area to the right. Next day was a sea day, which meant a chance to enjoy a sunrise …

Picture. We're on the ship again, looking out through the rail at a lovely sunrise with the orange glow dominating the horizon, diffusing through the thin cloud. In the foreground, Dwagon is on the sun loungers again in silhouette.

Sort out some of the pictures …

Picture. Dwagon is sitting on the laptop looking at the screen. There are a couple of file list windows stacked and there is another window in the centre showing two progress bars as the pictures copy from camera to laptop. Top left, we see a picture of dwagon, sitting in front of a bag, it's another version of the beach picture from earlier.

That’s part of the process I do for picking out the pictures. You can probably guess that I take a lot of pictures and only a selection are ones that I’d consider showing anyone or posting anywhere. So I copy all of the pictures to the laptop and then split them out by day. Then I’ll go through them picking out the best ones. That means that for the Mystery Cruise, I had a series of folders with names like “Mon 18”, “Sat 16”, “Fri 15” and corresponding ones called “Mon 18 – K”, “Sat 16 – K” and “Fri 15 – K” with the K being for Keeper.

All that done and it’s time for lunch and the Poolside bar did a lovely fish and chips. And then more general chill out and relaxing before enjoying a sunset as spectacular as the sunrise.

Picture. We're looking out over the ship rail again. Dwagon is in the accustomed perch of a sun lounger. The sun is just hitting the horizon and giving the sky a gorgeous orange glow.

Time for me to head off like the sun did here a whole bunch of hours ago. Good night everyone, have a lovely timezone.

Advent day 19 and it’s crowded in the hangar bay

Hello everyone,

Quick one again – internet feels better but I’ve had the old warning sign from my hand which means I probably shouldn’t type much … What’s behind the door today ?

Picture. We're looking at our advent scene again, with 18 models and dwagon scattered on the snow scene. On top of a red d6 on top of the big green d20 is a small fighter ship model. It has a central pilot pod, with a grey and green wing on each side.

Oops. Learning again not to press ctrl+v instead of ctrl+c when copying out the alt-text. (Random aside time!) It’s been a pretty useful skill to learn that, making the alt-text. The intention is to make the site more inclusive to people who can’t make out the detail in the pictures. Alt-text is descriptive words that you add, which gets picked up by screen reader software that’ll read out the text on the page. You’ll see it if you hover over the picture.

Why has it been more useful ?

Often, you’re not supposed to or aren’t allowed to take pictures of things. I mentioned spyware on mobiles last time, it extends to the phone providers insisting that you really want to upload all of your pictures to their servers. Ok, so what if you point the camera at something and capture something sensitive ? Oops. It’s now on Google’s or Apple’s servers too. The trick is to not point the camera at the sensitive things. But … when you’re the one person sent to look at something and you need to fully report back what you’ve seen to the others who aren’t able to go ? That’s the other way alt-text comes in really handy.

It lets you paint that picture of what you’re seeing in a concise descriptive language to pass on to those who can’t see what you’re seeing. But … it also trains you in observation to have you pick up the detail that you might have otherwise passed over with your eyes.

Anyway, it does mean that I need to pop the alt-text here in two places to make it work.

It’s a really valuable habit to pick up, because it really does help people out although I have been getting a bit lazy with the advent scene alt-text lately.

Other news before I disappear today …

Game screenshot. Truck Simulator. Our green truck is parked up off the side of a snow covered road curling off to the left. It has a trailer with pictures of letters on it. In the distance are tree covered hills, there are snow covered buildings of a village at the base of the hills.

Truck Game is doing a winter event at the moment, where you do short trips to and from the Winter Wonderland zone, added in for the season. It’s a good little variation in to the game, including having driving on snow effects.

And I think I need to rest that hand and disappear into book again. After enjoying A Sorceress Comes To Call by T. Kingfisher, I’m on a John Scalzi book again now. It’s The Collapsing Empire and it’s got a promising introduction to its space opera universe told in Mr Scalzi’s easy to read and very enjoyable style.

Later everyone, have a great rest of evening.