Changes, updates and kinda hanging in there

Hello everyone,

How are things going with you all ? Hope you’re doing ok. As for me, I’ve had another couple of runs to the hospitals (routine stuff) and I’m getting started on the rehab. Life’s had to change a little bit down here, as you’d expect from being mostly down an arm. I should get most of the mobility back, although I can feel that the left wrist is still quite delicate. Oh and I’ve been told that playing games can also be a decent part of rehab activity.

How’s that ! Not sure if I quite believe that but I’ll go with it. Talking of the games, I got a care package through …

Picture. We're looking at a selection of goodies. In the background, there is a square shaped light green coloured plushie with Intel written on it on a white patch. It has a pair of small white arms. To the left, a Get Well Soon card. My large red dwagon is to the right propping up a circular Creator Meetups UK coaster with their orange and white arrow and blue and white arrow.

That’s a plushie from the Intel people who were a key sponsor for the September Creator Meetups event. There’s a get well soon card with a lovely message. A Creator Meetups coaster and my red dwagon there is sporting a event sash (actually wristband, don’t tell the dwagon). There’s also a t-shirt, although that’s not in the picture.

The care package was a lovely thing to open today. I’ll talk more about the event some time but for now, I’ll keep it to just mentioning the Intel part … they were one of the main sponsors, which helps to make events like the last Creator North happen. We need their support and it’s hugely appreciated. I think they (could have been Asus too) were running the PC speed build thing at the latest event which was fun to keep an eye on. I didn’t take part in that … I’m excessively careful when I’m building my PCs so speed running them isn’t something I’d do but it was good to peek at.

Talking of PC building … it’s shameless shill time ! Bunny is an AMD build but I figured I owe Intel a mention, both due to the care package and for them supporting the events that they do. Disclosure note – the care package is a gift, attendance of the event was paid for by me, Pumpkin PC (about to mention) was fully bought by me, no other compensation has been received. I.e. this is an unprompted post.

Picture, cartoon. We're looking at an L shaped desk with two computer monitors and keyboard on it. The monitors have faces. The left one says "It's new year's, what's your resolution", the right one says "Same as always 1024 by 768"

So I mentioned that my current build is AMD, my longest serving PC is still Pumpkin built Oct 31 2011, going until July 2019. Pumpkin did really well and was super reliable. I don’t look for extreme speed in a PC, that tends to double the price for not really that much extra speed. I look for a build that I can put together, set up and then forget about for years while I watch videos and game on it. And Pumpkin excelled at that. The only technical issues it had was a Corsair power supply popping and the motherboard sound hardware popping.

And that was the trend with Intel for a very long time. They had a performance edge on AMD until recently but what they excelled at was lazy reliable performance. They could do what they do incredibly reliably and without fuss. Hassle free computing is exactly what I go for. So why did I go away from the Sandy Bridge i5-2500k powered Pumpkin ? It was struggling for performance in games due to only having 8GB of system memory. It was approaching time to change in 2019 and I’m glad I did because we all know what happened in 2020. Almost 8 years service is a phenomenal amount of time for a PC to be properly good for.

Picture. A small kitten is stretched across a laptop keyboard. The captions are "Ctrl Alt Delete Cat" "needs someone to hold alt"

What would I get if I went Intel now ? Here’s a Partpicker link. That’s pretty much the same bits as the new Bunny PC except for the Intel core in there. The prices are about the same too. The Intel chip has a lot more cores than my AMD Ryzen 7 9800x3d at a count of 16+8 vs 8 doubling to 16 threads for the AMD. Not entirely sure what the 24+8 means …

That’s another thing actually … The Partpicker list there is fairly arbitrary although I can vouch for case, RAM, psu, graphics and SSD. I’d need to know the difference between the P and E cores. And that’s where the research comes in. It’s a lot of money to invest, gotta be sure you’re investing in the right bits.

How about me though ?

The hospital visit last week was to get an initial follow up and they changed my cast as well. Oh and I may have hit a food allergy event too. So … good visit, bad consequences for me because I didn’t realise that the cookies I’d been munching and the giant Twix all had soya within and I can’t tolerate soya. Oh well. But I did get a slightly lighter cast, some basic physio exercises and advice that playing computer games on controllers would help with the rehab. Oh and I don’t need the arm sling any more.

Good results both there and a local hospital visit with a very lovely physio who gave me a few more exercises for the rehab and an injection of hope in getting all better. Having a little hope is ultra valuable.

How about that gaming though ?

Game screenshot. Euro Truck Sim 2. We're looking out from inside a truck cab, over the top of the dashboard and steering wheel. We're on a straight road with grass and fence to the sides with buildings and another truck ahead. A satnav panel is to bottom right.

I’ve had a couple of Truck Game sessions so far. It’s a little awkward because I use a Xbox style controller. The left hand needs to cover the d-pad for set and forget options like lights and wipers. The middle finger does the brakes, first finger is left indicator and thumb does steering. Awkward but possible. The drawback with the two Truck Games is that when you start a run, you really need to finish it and my State of Being at the moment means that when I hit a certain point, I will need to STOP pretty much immediately which isn’t compatible with having to finish the runs off.

Game screenshot. Elite Dangerous. We're in the green ship with two prongs overflying a pink ish planet. We've just overflown and are looking back at an enormous crater. On the horizon is another planet, we can just see its rings. The sky is dominated by purple nebula and stars.

And then there’s Elite Dangerous, which actually got me started doing two handed typing again.

I use a Thrustmaster Hotas X for Elite (linky). It’s a basic Hotas as they go. You can get a lot fancier and expensive than that (search VKB and Virpil) but the Hotas X has been solid, reliable and above all comforyable for me to play Elite with. The pitch, roll and yaw are all done on the right hand stick. The left hand throttle has the forward and back and a rocker arm I use for left and right. My left thumb uses buttons for up, down and boost.

I’m not fluent with the Hotas yet in Elite but I had enough for a short(ish) travel session of 54 jumps (a session would normally be around 200 jumps). I can’t fully grip the throttle side yet, just half of it. It’s enough for travel where you can’t go up/down/left/right, not for more fine control although I could manage the external camera which is how I get all the screenies.

Oh and the big bonus …. because I do a few things very quickly, like renaming screenshots, I started two handed typing again. Big result there. Oh and Elite offers up interesting places to land at where you can often set up a good view.

Game screenshot. Elite Dangerous. We're looking at out green spaceship landed on a stark white planet. Above right is a small looking grey white gas giant planet with bands of dark colour. To the left, the sky is dominated by the dusty brown of the stars of the galactic disc.

I better close up there …

I’m having to do a few changes. My snacking is much reduced (which is good) and I’m adjusting to having less in my left hand. I’ve been ticking off a few IRL achievements like being able to lace up the boots, although I still have very little grip strength and even less carrying strength. Haven’t attempted long sleeves yet or the laundry (weekend thing). I need to do more of the physio exercises to get mobility back.

I’m doing ok and am fully independent here in the house, within my limits. I’m very low on energy still but it has been good being in some of the games again.

Oh and the online communities I hang around have been wonderful and have sent a lot of love my way. It’s vastly appreciated.

Pictures meme. We're looking at 4 cartoon panels steadily getting closer to a fuzzy black cat. The captions read "I wish your year is full of nice things"

Credit to Purr.In.Ink there, they’re always coming out with these cute little cartoons with the best vibes.

Have a lovely day everyone :-).

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Back from an unscheduled medical emergency

Hello everyone,

Checks last post date … 20 August ! Oops. I should have posted before going up to the Creator North meet up on 13 September.

I … got badly hurt and I’m not long back in the world after nearly a fortnight i hospital with a shattered wrist and broken shoulder. I’ve had 2 operations and was very well looked after up in Manchester, so the long term prognosis is good but it might take a while to get there. Hopefully by the end of the year. I’ll hopefully be able to get a decent amount into this post but I am on one handed typing and my body and mind are overdrawn on reserves.

So what happened ? Short form is that the meet up was held at a skate park, there was an introduction session and I found out the hard way that skateboarding is not for 50 year old me.

Caution warning medical injury details follow but what I’m going to do is surround that by a couple of pictures. So if you find that kind of thing upsetting, PLEASE skip to the picture after the one below that will become the thumbnail to this post. I’m not out to upset anyone here with details that could cause someone nightmares. With that, here goes !

Picture of a green skinned dwagon model, standing up. They're dressed in a blue robe with long red coat over. The left arm is pulled into their belly and has a blue cast on it. The right arm holds a crutch. They wear a wide brimmed red hat.

Right, so I fell off a skateboard at low speed pretty much on to my bum. My left wrist broke the fall and shock went into my left shoulder. I felt no pain at this point (I’m weird like that) but reaching over with my right hand, I realized that both bones of my forearm were broken just before the wrist. I could also feel that my left shoulder felt very wrong. I could barely bend or lean over later with waves of excruciating pain.

I was then very well looked after by the instructor and then one of the park’s first aid people before being taken to the local hospital’s Accident and Emergency by the very lovely Billietrixx (will link later) who is one of the organisers. At 4am and about 5 hours of feeling grating bones and increasing pain post adrenaline and shock in my wrist and my shoulder with my left arm locked to my side, initial treatment was complete, I could move the arm slightly, my wrist was in a cast and sling and I was off to the ward.

The damage was a broken shoulder, with the ball broken off the end of the humerus bone. Both my wrist bones were badly fractured in patterns that were giving the medics quite a bit of concern.

On Thursday 18th, I had the operation to sort out the shoulder, enabling enough movement to allow an operation on the wrist. The operation went well although there was concern about loss of feeling on the front of the shoulder.

On Monday 22nd, I had a second operation to sort out my wrist which had had complex fractures of both radius and ulna. This operation feels like it went well too although there is uncomfortable swelling still.

Both ops were under general anaesthetic, the initial reduction was in A&E with me having eyes firmly closed puffing on the anti pain vape. That’s hopefully enough of the detail bit … I have some movement (it’s restricted by a heavy cast and sling) but the bones aren’t grating inside any more. The ops installed plates and screws to stabilise everything. It’ll make things interesting around metal detector scanners.

Picture. Meme. A light colour fur kitten is sitting and looking directly up at us with lovely blue eyes. The captions are "At teh first sign ov teh blues, pick up and rub face in teh fuzzies. Apply as needed.

It should be safe to read again if you are sensitive to the caution warning stuff. I did an escape on Thursday 25th, so I’m back home currently. The trip back was by train, the first half was comfy and smooth, the second half past Birmingham south was a rollercoaster. I felt heavily battered by the end and I also picked up a complex cramp in my left leg which felt like I’d turned the ankle.

So how about now ? I’m pretty much able to look after myself at home one handed. I have maybe 5% function in my left hand which will get back to … let’s see. Lots of healing to do. A lot of the restriction is in a very heavy cast which interferes with gripping things. Did you realise that putting on a headset is pretty much a two handed action ? Possible but tricky to do that one handed.

My energy is extremely low. I was able to crack open the work laptop on Friday to do some essential things. It was great to see the people on our weekly team call too. My mental state is … interesting. My emotions are wide open at the moment, so I’m going to concentrate on positive vibes (catching up on videos and streams there). I need to avoid negativity (while not pushing a very worrying family situation away that I’m not going to talk about here).

I have what’s called a Fit Note which states that I’m unfit to work for a while, that leaves an option to still work at the discretion of the injured person so I’ll continue to be on the work laptop. I just need to understand that it’s going to take much longer to do tasks and there are going to be other restrictions.

It’s not just the left arm that I need to look after, it’s my other 3 limbs and my head too. I get mental zoomies which I need to direct into things that keep me happy and/or productive. Can’t help that. I can’t just rot more and play one hand compatible games for the next few months. My right arm is already complaining at the extra awkward work it’s doing too. Legs are ok now after the cramps.

I’m running out of energy so I need to close out, quick stuff :

Billietrixx (twitch link) and Lookitstilly (twitch link) looked after me so well by first taking me to the hospital and staying there until having to go back to the event. And then by rescuing my stuff from the hotel room. I owe a huge debt to these two incredible ladies.

There was also an incredible amount of kindness and positive vibes coming from the online communities and friends that carried me through too. If you’re reading this and helped or thought of me in any way, you are an absolute LEGEND to me. Thank you so much.

Thanks to the gentlemen with me on the ward, there was a little core of lovely guys there who made it a very chill healing place to be for the almost fortnight. Get well soon guys. I think the staff appreciated our bay being a chill place to be too.

The doctors who patched me up. I’m restricted in movement still just two weeks after the severe injuries but it’s with huge thanks to them that the ops went well and I’ll hopefully get most of my left arm function back, if not all of it.

MASSIVE thanks to the nursing staff up in Manchester who looked after us so well providing a wonderful safe healing environment.

A to Z challenge for pointing me at most of the books read. I read no less than 7 while I was there : The Last Emperox by John Scalzi (recommended but it be book 3 of 3, Quarter Share by Nathan Lowell (good book to start a series), Under Fortunate Stars by Ren Hutchings (interesting but long), The Twisted Ones by T Kingfisher (good, not her best), The Year Stardust Fell by Raymond F Jones (reads old but story is good), Status Quo by Drew Wagar (fast start to series needs better edits) and Star Centurion by Miles Rozak (pulpy sci fi adventure fun). I’ll talk about these more some time, they all deserve more words.

As for me, it’s going to take time to heal but I am ok now. I hope to heal up well, I realize that it’ll take a while and I need to put limits on myself to keep myself safe and so I don’t set my healing back. These injuries are the worst I’ve had out of a long list of damage I carry.

Right – my right shoulder is screaming at me now, time to say goodnight.

Be well everyone, live your life to the full but keep an eye on the risks you take. Don’t be scared of them, be honest with yourself with them. I found out that skateboarding wasn’t for me the hard way but if I hadn’t taken the session, I would be left wondering what might have been.

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