The Quest for Bread

Hello everyone,

How’s that one for a title 😀

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This one’s about food. Ok maybe it’s also a little about heat but it’s mostly about food.

I share what seems to be getting ever more prevalent in people … and that seems to be increasing levels of food sensitivity. Mine has probably been a thing for quite a few years now, with my body both having the sensitivity to it, plus a certain amount of conditioned resistance from having a steady intake of it over the years.

My particular problem looks to be with Soya. I do have other issues like with orange and ginger but the biggest and most problematic one looks like it’s soya. It’s in absolutely everything these days, you have to be extremely careful looking at ingredients and allergy descriptions to make sure you don’t inadvertently consume something that’s going to cause problems later.

I think it started with me around 15 years ago, with a probable infected bite in my leg while on holiday. The infection was pretty bad and tenacious and took a very long to clear. At the same time, I think it probably rewrote my body’s sensitivities to certain things and one consequence of that was that the infection was spread (by me) from the leg to it affecting me all over. I think it’s where the bad response to orange juice came from, plus it probably activated the soya intolerance.

So how does it affect me ?

Everyone’s affected by different things to a lot of different degrees. You’ll have heard of people who if they’re near a peanut, they react immediately and extremely seriously. Other people cannot tolerate gluten, it’ll properly mess them up. Mine is apparently soya but it’s to a much lower but still serious degree.

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There’s sensitivities to milk products as well, too much lactose can cause us problems because it’s very difficult for us to digest.

With soya, the problems I get include :

Cramps – when I escaped from the hospital last year, I was managing cramps on the way back and when I got to the local train station, I had a huge complex leg cramp that made me feel like I’d twisted and broken my ankle. I was able to get home with the help of a taxi person. When I went back the week after, I had a terrible night in the hotel room because pretty much every bit of me was cramping up.

What had happened there was I think the hospital diet had cold turkeyed me on the soya products and my resistance by exposure had gone. So when I got back and was on my usual terrible diet habits again, the soya got in and messed me up.

Digestion – they’re always worried about people going to the bathroom while in hospital. Let’s just say this wasn’t a problem when I got back home. Nuff said 😀

Skin issues – it makes me break out and the skin irritation makes me cause even more damage. As soon as the second cast was off on that Wednesday back in the hospital, I was attacking the arm really badly and had to cope with the consequences of that until the next cast was taken off a month later.

That’s where the bread link comes in … my local supermarket have IDEAS about what to sell. I’ve recently had to swap from Kingsmill (good bread) because it wasn’t stocked any more. The acceptable looking substitute was Hovis. Nope, it’s made with soya flour. And my arms are messed up again after a month’s worth of being on the bread with soya. It’s not just Hovis, the Warburtons teacakes taste great but … soya flour.

Throat inflammation – this is a scary, because I think the soya was damaging something in my oesophagus leading to problems swallowing some foods. That seems to have mostly gone away over the last 6 months, which is good because it was a Scary. I’d take a bite of steak, try and swallow it and it would get stuck part of the way down. SCARY.

And there’s a few more symptoms too.

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What complicates things is the attitude of the providers of our food and other products to the allergies and sensitivities that we have.

Ben and Jerrys and the otherwise wonderful Farm Shop at the motorway services both believe in being eco friendly, which means they use soya in everything they do. I cannot have their products. Other companies use Soya Lecithin in their chocolate as the emulsifier instead of the old E number. I cannot have their chocolate. I used to default to KFC because it does taste good. I cannot have their food because all of it is “May contain soya.”

It’s fine when people are direct with the allergens and declare it as a definite. The people (like KFC) who declare it as “May contain …” are a much bigger problem. One of the things about identifying a food problem is research and data. If it’s “May contain”, then sometimes you’ll get away with it for a while. And then another time you’ll have had a KFC in the first motorway services and nearly been sick in the car on the way back. Yep, that’s almost happened with me a couple of times and I had no idea what caused it. Also putting “may contain” on every single allergen should give all of you alarm bells because it’s suggesting that they have very little controls on their food preparation and potential cross contamination.

Costa’s hot chocolate is another which comes in the “they probably don’t realise it has soya in it” category. I have coffee in the Costas now, the hot chocolates always seem to cause me consequences later. Note, that’s not intended as shade towards Costa … I just have that feeling that there’s something else going on their with their hot chocolate that they’re not aware of. Or I also have an issue with hot chocolate.

The Warburtons teacakes were a classic thing for the “may contain” trap … because they do taste really good and they’re just better than the Tesco ones. But … sometimes you’ll be fine, sometimes they’ll be like a knife in your insides.

One note there – all the people above are quite open with their allergens. It’s listed quite plainly within their warnings and ingredients. The soya is almost certainly in there for taste cos all the stuff above (and the PizzaHut Can’t Believe It’s Not Cheesecake soya bombs) tastes good going on delicious. What we need to do is be very careful about making sure we look for those warning labels.

And that’s what we get with the food intolerances. It’s not just food as well. My eyes are always quite sore and I attempted to help them by using an eye mist spray. I had to stop after a couple of days because I was increasingly wheezing and struggling to breathe. It was another Scary. The UK site said “it’s fine!”, the NZ site for the same product listed all of the allergens and … you guessed it : Soya Lecithin emulsifier.

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Apologies for the picture quality there, it’s the best I had to work with at the time. That’s Knightenator, a very lovely streamer lady from here in the UK. She’s absolute chaos, absolute mayhem, the streams are a lot of fun to surf in and … she talks a huge amount of sense when it comes to her own food problems. Knight’s afflicted by being coeliac and has extreme problems when it comes to gluten.

I’d highly recommend giving her a follow on the various socials because as well as being highly informative about trying to find gluten free products to survive on, she’s just plain fun to watch. It’s not just the gluten free, Knight also loves to show us Disney and other fun stuff like the Magic the Gathering pop up.

I think that’s about it for me today before the heat goes above a level where I can think clearly …

One last plea for me – if someone says they have a food sensitivity, take them very seriously. Don’t make it something to be embarrassed about, because that either makes people not go to that place again (the local Harvester made it a Big Thing, I never ate there again) or it makes them more likely to not mention it and then suffer the consequences when you’re out of sight. That’s how it goes with me, the soya doesn’t hit me immediately, it’ll slowly creep up behind me and whack me later.

They may also have a complex allergy where they haven’t been able to lock down exactly what the problem is. This is the position a very dear and close friend is in. Something is messing them up extremely badly but no one has been able to identify the cause yet. Huge hugs there.

The food sensitivities are very real for us and can have very serious consequences, even if those consequences don’t show up immediately. My plea to you as a general reader is to absolutely take what people say about allergens on faith, believe the person totally and do what you can do to help them just plain survive.

Like the taxi driver did a few hours after I had a Mars bar which almost stopped me from being able to walk unaided.

Thanks for reading everyone !

Oh I’m still wondering where I can get my bread. I’m looking for : No Soya Flour. Thick slices. Doesn’t get lost to mold after a few days.

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Hello again, it’s been a while

Hi all,

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Oh gosh things have changed a little round here as well on the back end since I was last here. Looks like my hosting service has gone all in on AI so I might have to go all in on somewhere else.

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I think the rise of GenAI and the rampant uncontrolled harvesting it does has contributed a lot to me staying away here but there’s been more going on there. This is a very quiet site, there aren’t that many real people visitors and I’ve contributed to that state lately by this being the first post of the year. Content brings traffic. I’m getting sidetracked but the way I’m seeing it on this site is that in the first 6 months of 2025, this site got 325 views. In the first 6 months of this year, there have been 18.1k views. That doesn’t make sense with the lack of content, it can only be explained by this site being used for active harvesting of what I write for presumably GenAI large language models.

Not a fan of that. Something I’ve attempted to develop in myself for both home stuff and work stuff is a writing style that’s genuinely me. If people see my writing or my emails, they’re more encouraged to read, they can hopefully follow along with me (something I’ve really had to work hard to develop) and they respond. That’s especially important at work when you don’t get that much time to keep people’s attention with everything that goes on.

Never mind that though, how have I been, how am I getting on ?

Physically, my arm with the scaffolding in there is mostly good again now. It’ll never be perfect again because I’m getting old and I did a horrendous amount of damage to the two forearm bones. But I have pretty much full use of the fingers again now, feeling is back to perhaps 99% so the nerve damage is pretty good now and the shoulder is strong enough now to allow me to pick heavy things up again. I can clasp my hands behind my back again, which I could barely do at the start of the year. That’s what hurts now of what’s left with the movements, the rest is fine (pretty much)

Mental side is … different. I feel as if I’ve been in a slump for most of the year to date and have been putting that brave face on it. I can continue doing stuff I’ve started but it’s been really difficult starting doing stuff. Like I should have done a shopping run this weekend, that’s been deferred to tomorrow evening. I’ve been able to do a few things so far this year but that stay in it’s easier has been winning too much.

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Quite.

Things that have happened this year and I’ll do these in their own posts in due course have been :

Dreamhack came to Birmingham for the first time in March. It was a chance to meet some wonderful people for the first time, some wonderful people for another catch up and a fairly chill and not so busy exhibition with lots of things to see and shinies to play with. It was great meeting people including the wonderful MissVadams and September Duck (and friends) with FGSquared coming in for a lunch meet up. They’re all people from the streaming community who are just awesome people and will brighten anyone’s day. LookitsTilly and Madddog were cruising for all the goodies, Curlylocksgamer didn’t quite run me over in the motorchair and it was fun running into kayPOWXD and very tall significant other after enjoying MiyukiPanda’s stage show.

I was able to catch up with Miyuki as well, there’s been a sense of catharsis running into and chatting to people from the Creator North event last year. Panda was about 10 feet away from me when I shattered the arm and was perhaps the one who sent the absolute most of anyone of the positive vibes that came my way after that accident. I had a lot of those come my way from all of the online communities and they massively helped last year with my state of mind. Anyway, it was good having a quick natter with MiyukiPanda after the event, she’s a lovely person plus one thing I’ve been concerned about is letting all the people who have been super worried about me see that I’m ok now.

And the arm is pretty much ok now. I was discharged from the need to go to the physio a while ago, I got a clean prognosis from the bone people who have been doing the x-rays. It’s not healed perfectly but … I still got 2 working arms. I’ll accept that 1% nerve loss for having 2 working arms again. I’m in a better place than a lot of other people there.

Ok ! Dreamhack led to an acquisition …

Picture. We're looking at two very smart, very high quality flight sticks. On our left, is a throttle unit with a big control arm hiding a lot of buttons and switches behind. On our right, is a conventional joystick style thing also with buttons. My little red dwagon sits behind the throttle, my big red dwagon sits behind the flightstick.

That’s a pair of Virpil Controls bits and pieces. I had a chance to try these out at Dreamhack and was very impressed with how they felt and the absolute highest level of quality in how they were put together. I went back to my previous Thrustmaster Hotas X after disappointment with (shockingly) poor build Saitek / Logitech X52 Pro sticks and while the Hotas X was still good for Elite, it was suffering from age with drift and buttons that were giving up. The Virpil Controls gear took a month to arrive after ordering but they’re incredibly good in use and they’ll support me looking to learn proper flight sims again with the extra controls they have.

Dreamhack has been the highlight of the year so far, that lunchtime meet up was a wonderful time.

I also did the Lords Interservices T20 day again, this was early this year being held at the end of April. It actually worked out very well for us, there was no rain on the day and I found a quiet perch with a great view. People were loving the Dwagon On Tour pictures that I’ve been posting from places too, my current avatar around the places is the Little Red Dwagon sat behind my good R50 camera.

Modelling … not so much this year. I have the finger dexterity but not the energy or inclination. That should come back at some point.

Oh there’s also been meet ups at Thorpe Park with the Creator Meetups people (good chill day out) and I acquired lots of shiny things at UK Games Expo. I won’t go to UKGE on a Saturday again, it was too much … too many people, too hot, too much crowd. But good loot and a good lunch escape with Andy of Billietrixx’s community.

Lots of reading’s been happening as well with the usual highlights being T Kingfisher’s novels and continuing the Share series by Nathan Lowell following his Ishmail Wang character who had to run off to be a merchant spaceman.

And of course the gaming … I enjoyed the Star Trek Voyager game that came out this year. They did well with this one, it’s like a greatest hits of the Voyager series but sticking to the stories from the show that were the most key and most achievable to put in the game. So the Seska series is in, Endgame is in, Year of Hell is not …

Last bit before I use up my hand points – Forza Horizon 6 has been huge fun getting into this one (with MiyukiPanda’s community!). Last time I did a lot of racing, I had a concussion that was putting a little bit of lag into my reactions. So I basically couldn’t do racing games. They’re a lot more fun without that particular concussion :-D.

Thanks for reading if you’ve got this far – I’m ok. I’m not the best mentally for a whole heap of reasons but I’m doing ok there. I’m in a bunch of fantastic communities online who are lovely to drift in, centred around the excellent streams to vibe in. I’ve got a few wonderful friends down here to talk to as well.

It’s good to have posted again – see you all next time !

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